【Fade Away】

Nightmare again.
Tried my best to continue sleep but
NOT WORKS at all
I'm down.

You asked me to be strong and tough
But do you know that i'm afraid of being alone?
You don't know everything about it

It's really a sad matter for me
That
I'm unable to see you everyday
Even just once a week
But i'll just cherish it
I miss you like crazy everyday
I don't dare to find you at your working place
I just hide myself with blanket and pillow
And dropped my tears in the middle of the night
I'm trying to act like i don't care
I'm trying to act like i feel nothing
I'm trying to be strong infront of you
I don't wanna cried like just now
But what can i do
I can't endure anymore
You just left me behind perfunctorily
Without any comforts
It's definitely sarcastic

I'm disappointed.
It's freaking disappointed.
You ain't beside me even only few hours in a week.
I wiped my tears alone
And

NOW I REALIZED HOW TINY AM I IN YOUR HEART.

Why must keep repeating the same words, same sentences to me everytime?
You couldn't be a good boyfriend
You couldn't be a good husband
You couldn't be there for me when i need you
I must learn to be strong
And everything's gonna be alright
Bla bla bla
Why not trying to change and solve it besides talk alot of nonsense?

Now i'm telling you that
YA I'M CHILDISH
I need you every moment
I'm just a child who only knows how to cry and cry and cry
But no one could be able to repeat
What i've done to you
Do you agree?

YOU KNEW IT
YOU KNEW HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU.

Whenever we apart
I hold you deeply on my heart
Everyday i'm waiting for FRIDAY
What you know?
Only 'sorry'?
I would accept your 'sorry' if it really cures everything
But sorry
In fact it doesn't works at all
I know there's nothing much to say
Because tears will just speak it off
It's ok forget it
Just put the blame on me.

But, why must left me alone?
I didn't mean to blame you
I just wanna release my emo here...
Sorry
I know i'm irritating




TRUST ME
I DON'T KNOW HOW TO BE FINE.