【Depression】

Well , this is my 1st blog here...Too bored , my life. LOL.
There's so many jackass stuffs happened in my life lately. It made me feeling drown...
I'm so stress being these few days. Who knows? Should say, who cares?
I decided to retake my SPM exam for this year.
My buddy failed her maths for last year's SPM.
Lol. Erm so she's going to retake that subject la...I think i'm going to join her.
Erm...I've hided myself at home for half year++ i tink...
I have to think about my future even i don't really want to.
I'm sick of this shit , don't ask why.
Sometimes i asked myself 'what do i have?' I don't really know what am i expecting...
Or maybe i'm just...Erm...I think i used to be alone?!

I'm so tired right now...Ya what i have is TIME. I can sleep as much as i can if i wan to.
But it's so hard for me to sleep. I don't know why.
Maybe i think too muchie...
My face looked so pale nowadays.
Looks like drug addict. Lol. Hate insomnia!!!

Babe, i miss you...
It's so hard for me to accept everything came out from your mouth.
It hurts me badly.
All the while you're just blaming on me that i loved another guy before?!
Or maybe i sleep with him before?
What a stupid reason...
How about those promises you made? Do u even keep it in your heart?
Everyone has their own past included YOU.
I don't really understand why can't you just forgive and forget.
Sometimes i was thinking...Maybe i'm not really the 1 u need.
You always mention that there's another 1 in my heart.
Who's that? Give me the name?
YOU'RE ALWAYS THE ONLY ONE FOR ME.
Everytime you just give up me like that.
You just left with a stupid reason that i don't need to accept.
You're just lying yourself.
Do you think i feel happy when you're hugging another?
I DON'T!! Ok?
Why? There are too many question marks stucking in my brain.
You gave up our relationship because of another girl.
U thought i don't know everything?
Sorry i knew alot but i'm just keep quiet.
I hate arguement. It's sad...
I don't really can accept what you've done.
But what can i do?
I know i can't do anything...
I love you. I do i really do.
Why you're always the 1 who gave up. I don't get it.
Aren't we need each other? 3years among...
I don't expected anything from you...
All i want is you stay right by my side!
Sometimes those words from you are sharps. It make me feel everything i did....worthless...
But i'm still surviving. I hope you could know me some day.
'Give up'? No such thing in my dictionary.

Pls remember, YOU'RE MY BOY.
My heart is always for you.

--- Trust You Because You Я CSH? ---




_______________I dropped my tears that i miss you so much..._____