◤ The 16th Day You Left ◥

Today's shot . Stupid face @o@



Girl , everything's gonna be alright soon .

Seriously I don't understand how could a guy beat someone who loved him deeply ?
What the hack ?
It's the 4th time .
I'm so pissed-off with the slut
He's just tortured my friend like she's born to be abuse by him
I was super-duper dulan when I heard my friend told me about this
Why ? What's humanity ?
Who the fark you think you are ?
Mch you think you're THE ROCK ?
FARKIU la sohai ...
Please go toilet and look at the mirror
Look at your CHEEBUY face
You think you're farking handsome ?
Handsome like Edison Chen so that you can fark any girl you like ?
Sorry you're just a piece of shit
Or maybe not even a SHIT
Toh Sui Ka . You are .
I'm gonna accompany my friend to clinic for x-ray next monday
Her nose ... senget dah =(
So sad to heard it ...
Speechless ...

Human Being Heartless .

B , I'm so glad to be yours eventhough we're separated
You're always the best one for me .

I love you . =)

❤ The 15th Day You Left ❤

I don't know what to say anymore .
I thought our days would last forever ,
But now I realized that it wasn't our destiny .
614 is coming soon
Do you still remember what day is that ? ...

......



My pale face with ice honey . Smile forcibly .

Captured by my lil' sister this morning when we're taking breakfast
Most of my friends told me that I'm getting old
Hmm obvious ?
It's okay . I don't really mind anymore .

My sister : Jiejie , u count everyday like this horh...Count till when oh ?
Me : ...... Don't know
My sister : Count till jiefu come back ?
Me : I SAID I DON'T KNOW .
My sister : Paiseh lo yor = ="
Me : %$#@!$*%!

......

That's all for today
No more grandmother story
Haha you all should be glad right
Shhhh ...
Leave me alone cause I'm tired enough =)

♦ The 14th Day You Left ♦

It's the 2nd week
I still miss you. Badly .

I don't wanna spend another day,
Pointing fingers while I'm placing blame,
I'm no angel, imperfect myself, cos baby I am only human,
And I don't wanna put it all on you,
I admit I did some painful things it's true,
And I'm sorry for them, no making amends,
For always thinking I was innocent .

I wish we could take back the things we said,
Cos what we saids not always what we meant,
We lost our heads, in the moment,
And the words we used them like a weapon,
But no one wins if we both walk away,
And we hid behind the people we became,
We're warmer than that, we're better than that,
And i still cherish all the things we had .

I don't wanna meet you in dream anymore
I could just scream your name in my heart
I'm afraid of sleeping
The dreams were full-filled with sadness , painfulness and tears
Tell me how am I supposed to bear it ?
All I wish is to hug you tightly like what we used to did it last time .
Peoples keep on saying that I'm tough and strong
But they're not able to see the weak me .

I know you'll be back
I know you're still loving
I promise that I'm not gonna repeat the same mistakes
I just hope to rebuild our memories
Just once . Once ...

Tell me , what have we been doing all this time ?
How could we just defeated by all these small shit matters ?
I'm crying for everything I've lost
And I'm mourning over everything I gave up
I can still find the strength and touches in the moments we made
' Regret ' is only a meaningless word that would make us feel better

Our story was incomplete .
You left me an empty heart that is still crazy beating .
Now . Disappointment is everything
And I could just say nothing ...

I miss your warm hugs , so much .
Friday tomorrow . Sigh ...

♀ The 13rd Day You Left ♂

Love -
Giving someone the ability to destroy your heart
But trusting them enough not to .



Just For The Record ... Jordin Sparks

I can't help myself
If I don't wanna be with nobody else
I don't wanna leave my baby's side
And I don't wanna kiss another guy
I'll pass any test
Cause nothing in this world or in the next
Could make me second guess
Could make me change my mind
Could make me not protect what I'm feeling inside

Cause I'm smart enough to know that this is a good thing
Please believe it , please believe it
And I'm smart enough to stay right where I belong
And I'm faithful enough to know that this is meant to be
And if it's not , the don't speak
Don't ruin it , let me dream

Hear me , hear me
This is for my baby
There will never be another
There's so many ways I love you
And that's just for the record , babe
I need you , need you
I can't wait to see you
I so love when were together
Can't nobody do it better
And that's just for the record , babe

I can't be perfect
No one is flawless
But rest in mind
I'll be there through the good and the bad and the ugly and worse
So if it's something that you're lacking
Go and tell me first

So if there's any way to cheat
Don't tell me cause I don't wanna know
And if there's any where to leave
Don't tell me cause I don't wanna go
I don't wanna go to sleep cause I don't wanna miss you
This is team and I love my position
Lead me anywhere , I'll go with you there
I'll go with you there

If everyone could just forgive ,
The world would be a much better place ,
Forgiveness .

I'll be missing you .

I hate to being FFK !!!
It's okay if it's only once or twice
But now ?
Dude you count yourself please
How many times you broke promise
I've been waiting from 3pm to 8pm
Ya I'm angry and I hate PILOT okay ?
No need to call me anymore cause i off my phone already =)
88 missed calls isn't a big deal for me
Goodnight .

T___T My stupid stomach very pain
And keep going toilet
WTH !!!
Very farking bad luck ...
Gonna go for praying soon

Omitofo .
Bohbi bohbi . Please stop my ' laosai ' ASAP .
Thankiu .

♣ The 12nd Day You Left ♣

The dreams were still the dreams
Nothing ever changes
Time passes so slow without you
I could just apologize
Sorry for everything I've done to you
Babe 对不起
Sorry ...

Every little thing that you do
I'm still in love with you
It just keeps getting better .

I don't pretend to know what is love for everyone
But I can tell what it is for me
Love is knowing all about someone
And still wanted to be with them more than any other person
Love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself
Including the things you might be ashamed of
Love is feeling comfortable , sweet and safe with someone
But still the reason that make you drown .

However ,
I'm still looking back for yesterday
You're still a part of me ...

Seperti hari kemarin ,
Saat semua di sini .

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Darling I'm not torturing myself
I'll be okay
Don't worry about me
Trust me I'm okay
I can still handle everything
Thanks for your caring =)
I believe that
Everything's gonna be alright
It's just the matter of time
I just wanted to tell you that
Love ya so much <3


I AM STILL SURVIVING
I CAN STILL BREATH .

♥ The 11st Day You Left ♥

I'm kinda tired
I felt so damn stress
Everyone was nonstop complaining and critizing me
Including my family ...
I'm totally lost now
Insane
I wanna sleep
Shhhhhhh
Diam diam diam
Leave me alone .



I know I looked pale and messy
I've got no choice
Suffering from insomnia

Finally , I'm feeling tired
Hope i can have a good sleep without bad dreams
Goodnight everyone

To be continue ...


I MISS YOU LIKE CRAZY .
......

Nobody wanna see us together
Nobody thought we'd last forever
But it don't matter NO.

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Slept for few hours
Woke up so sudden without any disturb
I wonder how am I going to sleep tonight = ="
Ryan please come and bring me outttttt
Mcd then mcd la cincai la aper-aper sajer la
I'm gonna bored like cheebuy midnight later =(

I figured out that nowadays kids were so cute
My lil' sister's friend posted my pic in a forum
and trying to tell everyone that
My pic looks like HongKong artist Yong Gong Yu ( Kristy Yeung )
He still mentioned that ' 99% Looks alike '
L . O . L
When my sister told me about that
I was like " Meh hai oh ?! "
Hahaha ...
Nowadays little boy ...
Hey don't laugh ok ?
My sirname's Yong also leh ...
But ain't
Yong Gong Yu

Hahahahahaha
I just can't stop laughing .
OMFG
HAHAHAHAHAHA

【 The 10th Day You Left 】

B , I could just say sorry .
I'm sorry ...



I'm still here ...
Ain't gonna move away ...

I really do hate someone that is trying to mess up my life
Why must spoilt my relationship everytime ?
Why me ... ?
Why ?
Is it that really so funny ?
I'm so speechless ...

UNFORGIVABLE

......

And seriously I'm feeling sorry to someone
I'm sorry if i did something to made you misunderstood
I'm currently not available now
Or maybe will be a very long period of time
I still love him =)
You're quite a good guy
I'm sure that you can get a better one instead of me
Don't waste time and do farcical stuffs
Good luck dude .

Facts are always brutal .
I meant it and now i realized it ...



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What the hack ...

DAVID COOK YOU'RE ROCKS !!!
OH MY FARK GAWD !!! <3

♡ The 9th Day You Left ♡

Tell me where is your [ I'll Never Break Your Heart ] ?
Is it that promises made to be break ?
I don't even have the chance to cry out myself .

Jerk animal
Stop teasing about me and him
You think it's farking funny ?
Mahai go ahead and laugh me if you think that i'm entertaining !
Laugh as loud as you can !
Ya i'm a failure !
Or even a loser !
I admited I AM .
But why must laugh and gossip me behind ?
Why can't you just shut your fark up ?
Babi engkau o0o !!!
You're such a freaking CHEEBUY ANIMAL .
I'm so farking pissed-off with you all .
Stop your fake comfort
It's none of your farking business whether he is good or bad !
I ain't gonna fark you anymore
You think you're farking good enough to boast about yourself?
LANJIAO !!! Go hell please !
Go home and suck your mother's ASSHOLE !!!!

God
Tell me what you trying to want from me ?
I'm feeling helpless
All the time .
Please
I'm just a kid
Why must so cruel to me ?

I don't need any sympathy .
I'm feeling holy-sick with every shit and fake stuffs in this stupid farking world
Fark OFF .



Sorry that i'm rude
But
My endurance was over-limited .



I'M NOT OKAY
I'M JUST A HUMAN

❤ The 8th Day You Left ❤

Life goes on
I ain't gonna be strong . Anymore.
Nothing much to say
Stupidity ...
Had dinner with my family today
Long time never see my brother =(
Don't know what's he doing recently
Miss him alot



P/s :　Guess what , he is handsome la weiii . (Promoting ... xD)

Took some photos with my lil' sista =D










What you know la ...
This is what we call

[ ' S . M . A . R . T ' ]

i m i s s y o u . . .

● The 7th Day You Left ●

It's been a week
What i know is
Time wouldn't cure anything

Who's that girl you showing on your msn display picture ?
I hate it
I just don't want to see it anymore
Are you purposely to get me down ?
Ya i'm selfish
I wish i was the only one who exist in your life
I'm just that childish

......

June , coming soon
I hope that it'd never come
Do you remember our promises ?
Pd ... Cameron ...
Sigh ...

I'm disappointed

No matter where i go
Everything reminds me of you
Why can't i just let down ?

I miss our previous Fridays
So much

The night is so much cold



Tell me .
Would you come back ?
I'm still here
Ain't gonna move away ...

We were as one babe
For a moment in time
And it seems everlasting
That you would always be mine

Now you want to be free
So I'm letting you fly
Cause I know in my heart babe
Our love will never die
No !

You'll always a part of me
I'm a part of you indefinitely
Girl don't you know you can't escape me
Darling cause you'll always be my baby
And we'll linger on
Time can't erase a feeling this strong
No way you're never gonna shake me
Darling cause you'll always be my baby

I ain't gonna cry no
And I won't beg you to stay
If you're determined to leave girl
I will not stand in your way
But inevitably you'll be back again
Cause ya know in your heart babe
Our love will never end no

I know that you'll be back girl
When your days and nights get a little bit colder
I know that you'll be right back babe
Baby believe me it's only a matter of time

Always Be My Baby - David Cook

◤ The 6th Day You Left ◥

I'm sick
I'm suffer

I've tried my best
That's all i can do ...

Goodnight, everyone .

* Trust me , I'm strong enough to mend it . *

♠ The 5th Day You Left - 520 ♠

Now you're gone
I realised my love for you was so strong
And i miss you here now you're gone
I keep waiting here by the phone with your pictures hanging on the wall

Is this the way it's meant to be ?
Only dreaming that you're missing me
I'm waiting here at home
I'll be crazy now you're gone

There's an empty place in my heart
Without my Anna it will break apart
It won't heal, it never fades away
I'll be thinkin' 'bout you everyday

My tears dropped everytime when i viewed back your messages
The times we used to hug and hold each other on the bed
The repeated song we used to listen together in the car
The alarm i used to give you everyday 10 in the morning
The sweet smells we used to missed from each other whenever we're apart
The days we used to rely on each other
Every single memory was keep crazy replaying in my head

Is it that everything already gone ?
It's not supposed to be like this
No ...

B, I'm sorry . Sorry for everything .

Me ,
Such a failure
Yes I am . Macaohai .

♦ The 4th Day You Left ♦

Supposed to hangout with Ann ger today
But my stupid stomach was pain like shit
I was extremely suffered and tired
Sorry ger =(

Went kepong for dinner with relative at 7something
What i know is someone's son full month
But not really sure who is that
Alla . Cincai la since my mum wanted me to go
I hate family gathering
They used to ask those stupid farking questions
" What course are you studying now ? "
" What are you doing recently ? "
" How's your paktoh ? "
Bla bla bla 123 and 456 ...
But this time abit different
My mum's cousin brother ( aiya means uncle la )
He's soooo freaking funny + cute
He asked me " Yan yan where's your boyfriend ? "
I was a littlebit stunt when i heard what he ask
So i answered " He's working la hehe... "
Then the point is coming
He asked " When you going to marry ? Uncle is waiting for your wedding! "

OH . MY . FARK . GAWD + WHAT . THE . HACKKKK ...
What response should i give him ?
I just " hehehe ... " then runaway = ="
Sigh .

Reached home around 10something
Wu guai was headed to my home and find me yamcha
He told me that he's broke with his girl too
Pity
I realized that he's so sad actually
But he just pretend like nothing happen
Kept saying " Yeah no problem !! "
" So free now can go clubbing anytime!! "
Something like that
Damn . Want sei oi min infront of me meh ?
He asked me not to be sad
Maybe he'll be my next hahaha
Anyway, thanks for your comfort =)
Eventhough i'm not really fine



My forcible smiley face = ="
And 1 more thing
WE ARE JUST FRIENDS
So . Stop guessing kay ? =)


Seriously i had nothing to blog
It's just that
I'm too bored and lonely

So much pain in the night .

Life . Unpredictable .
Guarantee ? No such [ SHIT ] .

If everything goes easier,
I won't be feeling this today ...

♣ The 3rd Day You Left ♣

My period came last night
And it's been delayed for 2weeks+ i think
My stomach and downside are so damn holy-pain now
I don't dare to take any medicine cause my mum warned me not to take it
She asked me not to rely on those pinky-pils
Ok lo then . Pain die me
Seriously i was a-little bit disappointed why it'd came = ="
Baby T.T ...... Sigh
Alla forget it
I've been muting for whole day since i woke
I can't really sleep well
Still kept waking up and look at my phone
I think i have to buy some sleeping pils from pharmacy or clinic
Insomnia . It's really farking annoyed me

It's only the 3rd day
How long i can stand?
Still the same answer : I don't know

Waiting for Ann ger's call now
Ger i miss you so much
I'm ... down . =(


I . AM . SO . PAIN .
NO . MATTER . MENTALLY . OR . PHYSICALLY .
I . AM . JUST . VERY . FARKING . PAIN . . . . . .

I didn't mean to fall in love, but i did .
And i didn't mean to get so attached, but i am .

Thats' GG, my cousin and I
INSOMNIA CAUSED BAD SKIN THAT'S TRUE
And
I miss my smiley face
So much .

♀ I'm Still Here, Standing Strong ♂

Sei lui bao . Next time don't scare me like that la
CAPITAL LETTER some more
I'm getting old already
Are you trying to make me faint? haha
Tag me some more
You knew i'm lazy la weiii = ="

6 things I'm passionate about :
1. cash ( used to be the number 1 always )
2. babies ( ya is BABY )
3. shopping
4. sleep
5. food ( on diet . do not think about it )
6. my ... boy

6 things I say too often :
1. Oh my fark gawd
2. LOL !
3. i don't know
4. diu mou?
5. what the hack ?
6. yam gong

6 books I've read recently :
...... GOOD QUESTION .

6 songs I could listen over and over :
1. Chris brown - With You ( reminds ... )
2. Gwen Stefani - 4 In The Morning
3. Rihanna - Take a Bow
4. Alicia keys - No One
5. Backstreetboys - I'll Never Break Your Heart ( i used to listen every morning 10am while i was waking up someone ... caller ringtone . but it's just for the memories )
6. N'sync - This I Promise You

6 things I learnt for the past year :
1. family = best
2. love = lies. fairy tales are not existence
3. I'm useless
4. money is everything. no money? belah la budak .
5. friends are important
6. no one will sympathy you whenever you're crying

6 people to tag :
Lazy. Sao gong.
That's all.

I MISS YOU SO MUCH
FEEL SO BAD.


Now i can't believe that now you're gone
And i just can't sleep
But i know it's wrong
I just can't help
But feel this way for you inside
Because you promised that
You'll love me for the rest of my life

I know I've got to carry on
True love will last more than a lifetime if it's strong
But deep inside i know
That if it's really real
You'll come back home and heal the pain i feel in my heart

I do wish that you could know
That i truly love you so
I do

B , LOOK AT ME .
I'm here standing strong
And waiting for you to come back .

♥ All Or Nothing At All ♥

Me, i'm used to being tired and bloody
But you believed that i could be somebody
You put your world on hold for me
Gave away to follow, feel you through the fire
I need you to know i will
Believe me boy i'm so tired of running
I just wanna hold your hand
Stare at you like you've got everything i need

And what if i never said to you i was dynamite
And what if i never told you i'm afraid to cry
What if i never let you down
And said i'm sorry for the nights i can't remember
What if i never said to you i would try

What can i say, we have so much memories
so many things to look back on
I learned so much from you, gained so much
I loved the way you made me laugh
I hated the way you made me cry
But what i hated the most was when we said
Goodbye

Don't said it's okay, cause that's a lie.

I'm just like a doll
That staying on the bed
And waiting for the end of my life.



Goodbye my love

I love you forever

Goodbye everyone

Nothing left here

I shall move.

❤ Precious ❤

Hangout with my lovely ger Ann today
We went for movie movie
Chit-chatting all around
Awwwwww I ♥ her <3
What a precious day =D

There're something else stucking in my mind
No more mood to continue blog
Ciaoz`


For you, CKZ

Rihanna - Take A Bow

You look so dumb right now
Standing outside my house
Trying to apologize
You're so ugly when you cry
Please, just cut it out

Don't tell me you're sorry cuz you're not
Baby when i know you're only sorry when you got caught
But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow

Grab your clothes and get gone
You better hurry up
Before the sprinklers come on
Talkin' bout'
Girl, i love you, you're the one
This just looks like re-run
Please, what else is on

Oh, and the award for
The best lie goes to you
For making me believe
That you could be faithful to me
Let's hear your speech, oh

How about a round of applause
A standing ovation

But you put on quite a show
You really had me going
But now it's time to go
Curtain's finally closing
That was quite a show
Very entertaining
But it's over now
Go on and take a bow
But it's over now


Sometimes i rather act to be blind
Because truths are always lies.

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OH ya
Happy birthday to my dearest zhu,
♀ SAM FOO ♀



Stay lengzai ya.
Buddy always =)

【Goodbye】

Ya i loved you once
The feeling was so deep, so unforgettable
But now
Everything's over
Please do not ask me why am i so cruel to you
And you should know that you deserve it
All the while i was trying to give you everything best
I loved you with my heart
I gave you everything
Ok just a very simple question
Do you ever treat me as a human before?
The answer is NO ok?
I'm not prostitute
Can you respect me?
Everytime you made me disappointed
You just left me with your uncountable new girls
Fuck you.

There're nothing left between us
No more love
No more dearest
No more believe
No more sacrifice
No more apologize
No more forgiveness
NO MORE.

I love my boy
He treats me well
I'm satisfied with my life now
There's nothing gonna change my mind
I won't do anything that'd make him unhappy

PLEASE . LET ME GO .
We're game over
I couldn't forget what you've done to me
I was absolutely hate you like shit
Now you told me that you're feeling hurt?
HAHAHAHAHA...
A big clap for you
Don't make me laugh ok?
Good luck
Those memories we had i'll keep deep inside my heart
Thank you for loved me once too
At the same time i'll pray for those girls who be with you in the future
Ya i'm cursing you
HAHAHA`

Just let the memories turn into memory .



You know, you looked smart
I hope you'd change to be better
I mean some day =)


Goodbye. Dude
Never , No More.

♠ Unfaithful ♠

I HATE CLUBBING
I HATE SOCIAL
I HATE THE BITCH
I HATE THOSE GIRLS WHO KEPT LOOKING AT MY BOY
DON'T YOU REALIZE THAT I JUST WANNA STICKWITU?
You must don't know about me`

There're times in your life when you laugh heartily cause of something funny
And there are other times you laugh just to hide your disappointment.

So i woke up and told myself
Maybe today's going to be okay
I wanted so much to believed those words
It didn't. It never does
It's never a better day
And it's never going to be better
I look forward to good days and memories we had
But i guess i just took a turn on that

I don't know why i rant and wail about you all the time
I don't know why i tell everyone else around me how much i love you
Cause honestly, it's getting old
I never knew what it was like to rely on someone
I mean, rely on someone as much as i rely on you
Everything just so scary
I'm at that place where i look out into the city full of people,
and wonder how and why i got here.

I'm not in the mood to talk to anyone
I just wanna take a deep breathe
WHY IS IT SO HARD?

Why is everything so confusing?
Why everything goes so hard and
I'm the one who used to carry all these shits and pressure?
Why i'm not the only one in your heart?

......

I know i couldn't be the best
But i'm trying my best to be a better one
Why can't you walk together with me?

Depressed.

Bitch, I HATE YOU.
Go ahead and curse me
I DON'T CARE
Ya i'm a bitch so what?
Pls remember that
YOU ARE BITCHER
FUCKIU`.
o0o

◤ Filler ◥

It's been a bad day but i'm getting used to it now
The fear of being alone again
Doesn't feel right at all
Some nights i stay up late and cry
In my life i feel not loved
Everyday seems like a battle
Sometimes everything can be so scary
Why can't i just be happy?
Why can't i just for once have a relationship good enough to boast about?

Really exhausted inside-out
How long do i need to hang on to something that i see no future in?
I felt so miserable and i started confused with myself
I don't wanna fall down
I hate argument
I hate to being neglected
I hate tearing
I'm sick of what peoples gossip about you
I hate it i hate it i hate everything
But
I LOVE YOU

Everything inside of me
like a nervous heart that is crazy beating

Tell me how am i supposed to mend it...

♥ When Your Heart Breaks ♥

You shiver uncontrollably, even when it's not cold.
You see patterns in the wall.
You always need to sit down, because your legs are jelly.
You stop eating, because you're always too busy crying,
thinking you're not good enough, trying to figure out what went wrong.
You read the same line over and over, but nothing makes sense.

You lose your weight.
You're always hungry, but food tastes like cardboard.
You find it hard to swallow.
You stop feeling.
You stop sleeping.
You always want to be alone.
You tell everyone you're fine.
You do stupid things.
Everything is one big fog.
You never remember anything.

You find yourself staring into space.
You wish you weren't here.
You take long walks without knowing where you're heading.
You're always angry.
You stare at the veins in your body, wondering why blood still flows when the organ pumping it is broken into pieces.
You stare at the clock, counting down minutes.

You write and write and write.
You always need a fag.
You always crave a drink.
You wish people stop talking to you.
You replay your life in your head.
You listen to the same song repeatedly.
You have to remind yourself to breathe.
You hate people touching you.
You snap at everyone.
You say things you don't mean.
You hate explaining yourself.

......

And nothing really matters. Anymore.



Tell me where our time went,
And if it was time well spent.

Do you know that i tried hard?

......