♦ The 14th Day You Left ♦

It's the 2nd week
I still miss you. Badly .

I don't wanna spend another day,
Pointing fingers while I'm placing blame,
I'm no angel, imperfect myself, cos baby I am only human,
And I don't wanna put it all on you,
I admit I did some painful things it's true,
And I'm sorry for them, no making amends,
For always thinking I was innocent .

I wish we could take back the things we said,
Cos what we saids not always what we meant,
We lost our heads, in the moment,
And the words we used them like a weapon,
But no one wins if we both walk away,
And we hid behind the people we became,
We're warmer than that, we're better than that,
And i still cherish all the things we had .

I don't wanna meet you in dream anymore
I could just scream your name in my heart
I'm afraid of sleeping
The dreams were full-filled with sadness , painfulness and tears
Tell me how am I supposed to bear it ?
All I wish is to hug you tightly like what we used to did it last time .
Peoples keep on saying that I'm tough and strong
But they're not able to see the weak me .

I know you'll be back
I know you're still loving
I promise that I'm not gonna repeat the same mistakes
I just hope to rebuild our memories
Just once . Once ...

Tell me , what have we been doing all this time ?
How could we just defeated by all these small shit matters ?
I'm crying for everything I've lost
And I'm mourning over everything I gave up
I can still find the strength and touches in the moments we made
' Regret ' is only a meaningless word that would make us feel better

Our story was incomplete .
You left me an empty heart that is still crazy beating .
Now . Disappointment is everything
And I could just say nothing ...

I miss your warm hugs , so much .
Friday tomorrow . Sigh ...