♠ The 17th Day You Left ♠

The previous chubby me . Childish ?
It's only few months ago =)

Recently , I think I overdo alot of things
Perhaps , this is because my brain stopped working
And I stopped to think , considerate bla bla bla ...

I ask myself
What have I been doing all these time
I started to think about my future
Sometimes i was wondering , will I be single till the day I leave this world ?
The only factor that keeps me alive is my family
Because I have no other else ...
Isn't it funny , after trying so hard and when everything comes to the end
And you get nothing of it ...
I think I'm doing this all the time . Get nothing finally
That's what make me didn't want to put effort in doing things
Afraid of failures .
Sometimes when you expect in something else
But at last it's not as expected
What will you feel ?

I felt very sad that he's still contact with his ex
Knowing that there's something still on between them
Yet , I could just keep silence
This is the least respect I can give him
I think I'm done with crying
I'm done with acting tough
I'm done with sleepless nights
I'm done with alot of stuffs , people etc .
Sometimes , I do really tired of living in this world .
I couldn't see any lights infront of me instead of darkness .
Don't tell me that you know how I feel
Cause there's no one can get into my mind .



I'm just a doll that is souless
And waiting for death's coming .


Disappointment . The scariest feeling in the world .

" Hehehe ... B , love you ... Muacksss ... "

Somehow , I still remember our memories and promises .

" I've got no choice if you want to lie yourself like that .
Just forget about me ... "

I remember it too .