♠ Complicated ♠

It's the new beginning or the same ending ?

Finally met him yesterday .
Had dinner together with my laima's family =)
Haha it's so funny to seeing his shy face
Hmm ... I don't know what should I feel now .
Happy ? upset ? satisfy ?
I felt afraid when you're holding my hand
Perhaps , this is because I don't know when will you leave me alone again .
Where's our sweet memories ? Where have it been ?
Somehow , I'm still anticipating for something .
To see you changing and loving like how you did last time .
YOU KNOW I KNEW YOU and
PLEASE DON'T DISAPPOINT ME anymore .

Do you know what it's like to feel so in the dark ?
To dream about a night
And you're the shining star
Eventhough it's seems
Like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself
It's the only way .

Sometimes I do really envy those sweet couples
Stick and hangout together
Meet each other everyday
Hug each other tightly and sleep together
I can only say that wasn't my destiny
Happy - go - lucky ? What's that ? Can eat ?
There's no such word [ lucky ] in my dictionary .
Yeah human should be tough and live for themselves
Especially girls , who used to be the victim in love .
But , whatever ... I admit I'm just ... weak .
And now , I seriously don't know what am I talking about
But just feel like blogging and express some shits here .

I miss someone badly .
Not him , but him .
Why is the time so short ... ?

Judge me and I'll prove you wrong
Tell me what to do and I'll tell you off
Say I'm not worth it and watch where I end up
Call me a bitch and I'll show you one
Fark me over and I'll do it to you twice as bad
Call me crazy
But you really have no idea .

我认命 , 可是我不会认输 .